Cat prayer.

When a cat prays . . .

It's rapturous.

I still have an extraordinarily bombastic need for quiet, stillness and peace. That's why I am going to Maine, to Rockport rather than Camden or Bar Harbor, or back to L.A. Well, we'll see. I still need to remove myself from the world.

Something is happening to me now, that I don't know what it is. Whether it is results from the kundalini or if it is just plain down loading of light that the lightworkers might be doing now. Maybe it's the new moon.

I've been buzzing and burning like cold fire for two days. I can barely stay conscious, in form. I feel a power developing that I don't know what it is and I don't know what to do with yet. I am totally physically dysfunctional. I can barely make myself a cup of tea.

Hard work, paid off.

This is where I have been for the past five years, working hard for change.

Letter to Tyrus. Tumblin'.

I tumbled into a house in uptown Sedona, friends of D.'s. It is unfurnished so I sleep on a mattress in the middle of the living room under the cathedral ceiling. Huge windows and views of the red rock mountains. The people worship cats and are into ancient Egypt. They painted Egyptian symbols and images on the walls in the whole house and then painted over them. You can't see them but you can feel them. I feel like I am sleeping in the temple.

I am no longer making plans for my life, for anything, and doubt I ever will again. This experience brought me to where I feel I was meant to be, finally. I was in the tumbler and fell out cathartically into some sort of new. It's cool. I flow, I float, I watch, I observe. I go with the story. We'll see where it takes "me", or the Harmony. I don't really care any more. I lost grip of the outer and swim eternally in the oceans of Bliss. There are things I want but as they once said; "God can imagine for you better than you can imagine for yourself." So I let it go.

After the solstice.

I can't hear my guides any more, not since the summer solstice. I am kept in a cocoon of light and I can't see or hear anything.

The past couple of weeks have for me been extremely turbulent and hectic. Total chaos. No idea where it's all going.

Such energy, such complete divine orchestration. I feel totally blind and I think I am. I see nothing, I know nothing, I hear very little.

I feel I am inside of a typhoon / hurricane / tornado. But I trust in the divine to lead me to the right next plateau of my movie of life.

Great big sign finally.

After over two years in Sedona and not having a clue what I was doing here and no life what so ever opening up for me here ever . . . and wanting to go but that not either appearing to be possible, for all this time. I had wondered if I was not supposed to be here for whatever reason. I doubted that we were in fact ever going to leave.

I have not connected with any community, no activities, made no friends, have done really nothing, no sightseeing, hiking or exploring, just working or resting deeply. I haven't even bought one souvenir. I have really not tapped into this town what so ever, not at all. (The mountains, yes, the town, no.) And I was wondering.

So, recently we reconnected with some people who I felt would be our connection into the Sedona scene. I felt this could be the opening into us having something to do with this place and it's inhabitants. So we were going to get together with these new people . . . and each day they canceled with us and resceduled for the next day. Day after day. Now a week has gone by and we have not seen them still.

So, today I realize that we are actually not going to connect or work together and probably we are finally leaving this hole and that my life is waiting for me somewhere else and that as soon as I get there I will have a real life. Can't wait to go. Now I feel really released from here. Just a great sign that we are not connected in any way to this place. Just passing through, like we first planned and we are still on our journey.

It's been restful and tranquil bordering on intense boredom. But now, there is nothing in my mind that tells me that maybe we are supposed to do something here. I'm telling you. This place is boring. And goodbye.

Happy birthday ! ! !

I have seen it rain from a clear blue sky, on the island of Gomera in the Canary Islands of Spain, off the coast of West Sahara in Africa. That stunned us all and people stopped what they were doing and went outside to just watch the strange weather phenomena.

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Last night, here in uptown Sedona, lightning lit up the night sky, for hours. No clouds and no thunder . . . and it went on for hours and hours. I could see the stars bright in the sky through all my huge windows. I was actually thinking it was the great mother ship coming to take us home. I was hoping they would take all my cats and my stuff too, especially my computer. : ) Really, very strange.

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In two days, on Wednesday the 22 of July, it is my birthday and I turn 44 (8 - you know, feng shui). I think I will perhaps do something magical, in nature, with a few aligned ones . . . perhaps.

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In two days, on Wednesday the 22 of July, there will be a total solar eclipse. There are some fears about this event, that it will stir up evil and craziness. But I don't think so.

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I guess we all have to love as much as we can then, eh.

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LOVE people ! ! ! LOVE ! ! !

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http://www.mreclipse.com/Special/SEprimer.html

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Solar_eclipse

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Solar_eclipse_of_July_22,_2009

http://www.exploratorium.edu/eclipse/

http://www.bbc.co.uk/science/space/solarsystem/sun/solareclipse.shtml

http://eclipse.gsfc.nasa.gov/eclipse.html

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