I have experienced a total and complete break just recently. A break from the direction I thought my life was taking. I imagined that, logically, now things would unfold in a certain way and in a certain direction. Even though I heard from the upstairs that I wasn't going to do what I thought I was, I couldn't let go of the idea. It just seemed so logical to me, my imagined direction.
So, instead, a great break has taken place within my being, a break away from everything that I thought I was and everything I thought I was all about. Liberating really, since I really didn't want to go in the direction I imagined I had to.
I have been very, very ill. Spent a whole day at the ER and another ten days at the hospital in great pain and barely conscious. Finally through their care, prayer, healing from local healers and help from the upstairs, I pulled through. And I feel like I have been emptied completely. I don't know what my life is about and I have asked for direction and guidance and am beginning to see a new light. I feel like I died and came back. I feel like another person altogether. I feel another life is beginning.
Just as I finished the Eternal Fountain web site and my MySpace I felt sort of an end to my spiritual path. A closure. It has been a long and crazy journey and now something else begins. I think I may be going back to being just regular, magical, old me. Pagan, wiccan, witch ... magical fairy forest dancer and dreamer. Or to something entirely new ... ? ? ?
So, instead, a great break has taken place within my being, a break away from everything that I thought I was and everything I thought I was all about. Liberating really, since I really didn't want to go in the direction I imagined I had to.
I have been very, very ill. Spent a whole day at the ER and another ten days at the hospital in great pain and barely conscious. Finally through their care, prayer, healing from local healers and help from the upstairs, I pulled through. And I feel like I have been emptied completely. I don't know what my life is about and I have asked for direction and guidance and am beginning to see a new light. I feel like I died and came back. I feel like another person altogether. I feel another life is beginning.
Just as I finished the Eternal Fountain web site and my MySpace I felt sort of an end to my spiritual path. A closure. It has been a long and crazy journey and now something else begins. I think I may be going back to being just regular, magical, old me. Pagan, wiccan, witch ... magical fairy forest dancer and dreamer. Or to something entirely new ... ? ? ?
I know I will be on magical lands. Hoping to soon visit Scotland, England, Wales, Ireland and south of France. Perhaps an entirely ordinary life. One can only wish ...
