Sound and silence.

As I find out more about the musicians behind the Rumi's birthday performance, I again long to feel sound and live in the sound and the transformation and movement, the landscape of sound and music.

I used to do, live and work sound for healing; toning, singing, talking, humming, chanting, clapping, rattles and drums. As I find on the web these incredible sound healers and musicians here in Sedona, I sadly miss the sound and music in my own life.

In the year 2000 my life of external journey of activity and sound turned into an intense inward journey of stillness, silence, continued loss and much solitude. Now for nine years I have wondered much about why I was to be so quiet, why everything had to be taken from me, wondered even though I could observe the unfolding of it all. Missing what I had and not knowing where I was going instead. Still sad over all the losses.

Now, after the completion of the strangeness, with the Shiva - Shakti union, I am looking for a home and a home base where I can share the Great Silence and its' magnificence and perfection and all that comes from it. Might it be Sedona?

Am I here to stay?
Or am I passing through
even here, yet again, still?
Am I still on a journey towards something,
or can I sit down now, finally,
eh ????????

Is it here? Or is it elsewhere?

Sad, sad, sad . . .
so sad over all that I have had to give up.